Courage

And I know that sounds more difficult. Like, I say that and I’m sure someone listening to me would shake their head and be like, you can’t just do that. And maybe I’m an outlier—but I don’t think that I am. I think that people can just start to live who they want to be. And a lot of that takes a lot of fearlessness and just sort of committing to it.
And the commitment ends up being self-rewarding in the sense that—I’m never sure we’re going to pay the rent. I’m never sure. Not yet—I know that time is coming soon, and I’m certain of that. But I’ll get to the end of a month and I’m just like, we don’t have rent. But it’ll come.
And I never feel the anxiety. I never build any tension around that. And sure enough, we’ll do like a couple of lessons, and we’ll sign up a membership, and somebody will ask for 50 cups—and then you’re like, oh okay, we got rent. Cool.
But I think that’s the fun and exciting part about building something or chasing after one of your passions—is just that it doesn’t matter if you succeed and…I think that, like, the point of living fearlessly and knowing that—what’s the worst that can happen in this moment? Like, I don’t get rent? Maybe I don’t make it the next month. Maybe I don’t make it the next month. Maybe my landlord kicks me out. What do I have?
Well, I still have the same level of health that I would have if I didn’t have this business. I’d still have the same friends. My family would still be there. All the things that matter would still be there. So yeah, there’s always a bartending gig that can get me my food and my rent and whatever else. But you know—that tomorrow isn’t promised, and you have to live with that as a mantra. That, like, nothing is really that important that you have to be so worried about failure.
Like, failure is awesome. It’s awesome because every time that we fail, we build ourselves into the person that we’re supposed to be. And I think that all of the failure of my life up until this moment has, like, honed me into the person that can navigate this with at least more grace than I might have done in the past. So that’s been good.