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@paul-sheppard

Heal Yourself
When you're born, it's clean. It's pure. It runs very efficiently. It's perfect. As you experience life, we collect cookies, scripts, code, rules, boundaries, things we're told we can and cannot do. So that becomes what our operating system is running on, and that becomes our ego, our identity in this reality. For me, my ego served me very well for a period of time, but my operating system was running on some very bad data, some faulty scripts, and some codes that needed serious debugging. So in Reboot, and I talk about it in my book, you have to clear the cache, you have to get rid of the resentments. It is a lot of 12 step work. A lot of 12 step work, but it's not all 12 steps. But you're going to do a lot of it in the book if you're willing to. This is where it got me. In treatment, when I finally surrendered, I had been doing a lot of things prior to the surrender. I had been going to AA, and what a beautiful, divinely written book that is. There is beautiful knowledge in it.

Morning Routine
These are habits, a morning ritual. I wake up, I hit my knees. First thing I do, I thank God for another day, another opportunity to grow. Because if you're not growing, why are you here? You're stuck in hell. Hell on earth is when you're not growing, because everything is the way it is and I can't change anything. That's hell on earth. That exists, and that is real. Heaven on earth is where I'm at. So again, with all the things that I do in my day, it starts in the morning, because that is the first time my vessel is activated. And all I get is a day, each day. So I wake up, my vessel is activated, I get out of bed, I hit my knees, I thank God, I get the juice I need, I say my prayers for humanity, never for myself, and that is key. These are things I picked up and started incorporating into my life. What happens is if you start doing things that are in alignment, that resonate with your higher purpose, that chase, that yuck, that hole that you have been chasing starts to fill. God can fill that hole, that void.

Life-Changing Event
That system crash occurred for me in alcoholism. And so my fourth time in treatment, I finally surrendered. That was January 31st, 2022. I turned my will over to God. Was it ever hard following my purpose? Well, to be honest with you, I spent some time in a psychiatric ward not too long ago. Because as it unfolded for me, it was very clear that God was working through me. And now I understand it more. But at the time, He was just flowing through me, and the realization of how the universe works was very overwhelming. I was working at a manic pace because I couldn't stop working. Because as the truth unfolds, all you want to do is play in the truth, because it's the truth. I went to the psychiatric ward and I sat there and endured five days of questions. I showed them my paper, the Shephard Universal Proxy Theory, which is what got me into the psychiatric ward, and the doctors did not really know what to do with it because it is beyond current accepted principles. I was able to change lives in there, to unlock people in there, to show them that they're not crazy. And that's what was important to me, because I knew I wasn't crazy, and to help these other people see that they're not crazy, too.

Surrender
That system crash occurred for me in alcoholism. And so my fourth time in treatment, I finally surrendered. That was January 31st, 2022. I turned my will over to God. Since then, magnificent things have happened. It is so much more beautiful than anything I could have ever in my wildest dreams imagined. I am sitting here with you in Sedona, Arizona. Four years ago, if you said, 'What is the most amazing and impactful thing you can do with your life?' it would have been something about money. And that would have left me very empty. Page 552 of the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous says acceptance is the answer to all my problems today, because if you accept the things you cannot change, everything gets better, and then you play with the things you can. That is playing in the stream of reality. That is a truth. What I have learned is just sit back, stay in alignment, and what unfolds is so much better than what you would have ever thought. I am here with you today, and what we are able to do now is so much greater than what I would have ever picked my best life to be four years ago with my will. What God has shown me I am capable of in this world is far beyond what any man has ever told me I am capable of.