Deirdre Hade

And so again, God, it was like orchestrated. I would have to spend my life spending long hours sitting in tree branches, long hours sitting by rivers, long hours walking through fields alone, so I could stay connected to the presence. Because if I believed what people said around me, I would not want to live. I just did not want to be here. It was too painful. I had always dreamed of leaving the concrete city and going to nature. And the voice said to me, 'You keep praying for people and you keep loving people, and one day you are going to be lifted out of the concrete and you are going to fly into a place that looks like heaven, except you will get to keep your body.' And that is exactly what happened. Three years later, I met my husband, and we moved up here to where we live among the oak trees and lived happily ever after.

The first place I would recommend that you start is to find a place where you feel really happy. If it's next to a tree in nature somewhere, if you have a specific chair where the sun comes in, somewhere where you feel comfortable. And then close your eyes and look into your heart. As you look into your heart, just merge into your heart and feel the warmth of your heart. You may see a little light. You may see a light in your heart. Maybe it's pink, maybe it's gold, white, but it's a precious light in your heart. And as you're looking into your heart, still the mind by watching your breath. Very simple. Watching your breath go into your heart. Watching your breath leave your heart. And then as you do this, just bring the mind calmly back to watching the breath into the heart. And from the heart, begin to listen. You can speak to the divine in this very peaceful, connected place, where you can say, show me my purpose, send me a sign, what do you want me to know, I want to hear from you. Because you're speaking to your soul, and your soul lives in your heart. That's what you can do. And you'll do this until you hear an answer. You'll hear an answer. Something will come.

I had to hide that I saw angels at a young age. My friends. I started an angel school in third grade. It was called the after school angel school, to teach my friends how to see angels. Where I got this, I do not know. But we taught levitation, and I remember them laying down, and we put our hands under, and they would go up. A teacher found us one day and had a heart attack. Then my friends would come home and tell their parents, and this was the deep south in the 60s. And so all my friends would come to me and say, 'I am so sorry, I cannot be your friend anymore because you are doing the work of the devil,' because I was teaching them how to talk to angels. So it was, you know, I really had to go deep. And I did what I had to do, which I counsel all of the beautiful souls I am blessed and honored to work with. When that pushback comes, just go deeper. Just go deeper into the light of your being. So I went through my life with this secret self. I shared it maybe with a few people, shared it with my mother. But then as I became like 16, 20, 25, 30, those years, 35, I started to kind of edge out. So I had this little flyer, can you just take this? And they open it and say, 'I did not know you were a healer.' I go, 'I know, I know, but I am.' And every time I said that, I would cringe. I would sweat.

If you look up cognitive behavior therapy, you will see they have done many tests with controls showing that cognitive behavior therapy changes brain chemistry. So cognitive behavioral therapy is where you think a thought, I am not worthy to live, and you immediately think a thought, I love lemonade. Meaning, you break off the synapse. You break the conductor with a completely different thought. So that the pattern of I am not worthy, finally that pattern has nowhere to go. So you can literally say anything. I love lemonade. So I took that study of cognitive behavior therapy and I said, okay, we can take it a step further. Now that sense, I am not worthy, comes up. Now call in your own divine light. The light within you, the goodness within you. I like to call that angels. That is what I work with. But the angels of light, something that resonates in your heart, that makes you feel happy. Immediately call that affirmation in. And what happens is this pattern now, because the third point of that is the feedback loop in the brain, in the amygdala. What happens is you have now trained your brain to have a different pattern and the chemistry actually changes.

Then in the 70s, I heard about a medium that channeled Mary, and I went to them and I said, you know, I was all like, 'Oh my gosh, I hear this voice, and is it real?' And she helped me. So I found mentors. I found teachers that said, 'Yes, it is real. You have a gift.' And I am so blessed. They saved my life. And I was really led to these wonderful teachers, a lot of them really old women who were part of different mystery schools that were hidden. And so I was able to study. So it is taking therapy, of which I was mentored by the late Dr. Lwanda Stainberg, who was the first woman to get a PhD in psychiatry from USC. She trained in Switzerland at the Jungian Institute and in Paris, and she was my mentor for 15 years. We both, in conversation, she agreed towards the end of her life. She said, you are correct, therapy can only take us so far because it is the mind. The mind can only heal itself so much. Then something else has to come in, that is the divine.

And I believe that is the stage we are in in our world, that everything that is happening is to lead us to discovering the divine, that you are divine, that you are divine, it is in you. You are divine. It is not the vessel, what the vessel looks like, but the vessel is divine, too. But it is that soul, that light, that incredible wonderment that is you. The you that is unique. There is no other you like you in all of creation. Without you, the fabric of this entire creation would have a giant hole. God would weep. God would be so sad without you being alive. That is how important you are, just existing. We are all in a unified field of oneness. We are all points of light in a great ocean, and we are all reflecting each other. We are each other. So in this great unified presence of the divine that we are, anything you do which is in alignment with your purpose, it shines out. Throughout the whole globe, it affects all of creation because your light becomes brighter. You become a lighthouse.

I work with prayer. Prayer is not the transactional secular point of view of spirituality. But the longer I live and the more I work with people, I am convinced the key is prayer. Because prayer is a deeply intimate conversation from your heart. And the heart is the seed of our divine power. It is where real power rests. And when you access that, you can move mountains. When you come into prayer from your heart and you simply say, even you can say, 'Dear presence that I do not believe in, guide me. Show me the way.' Because even if you do not believe in it, it is there, because it loves you no matter what. This presence is grateful you are even asking. You say, 'Please, would you show me my angel guides? Would you bring the angels close and show me a sign? Speak to me, because I am ready now to listen. I am open.' So ask from the heart and then be open.

And so I'm kind of going in and out of surrender. So then I come in and I'm like, 'Uh oh, now what?' And then God says to me, I can hardly say this. God said, 'Put your hands over her and love her. She's your daughter. She's your child. Love her as much as you love your children. And your love is going to save her life. That's all you have to do. That's what heals.' And so I just did that. I put my hands over her, and then I just went into an altered. The knock on the door. Karen's like, I'm here. And then all of a sudden, panic, sheer panic came in. Anxiety. I'm doubled over. I'm sweating. And I say, God, God, this is it. This is the moment. I don't know what to do. I was crying. I was like, I'll be right there, Karen, just a minute. And God says, don't do anything. Get out of the way. Just get out of the way. I'm doing this. Say, I am going to surrender what I think I know of what is reality. I am just going to surrender it for a moment as an experiment. Just do that and see what happens. See what happens, because something miraculous will happen.

What happened was I went through a quite horrific divorce and was brought to court, and I had a quite mean female judge. And when it was brought to light that I had quit my career, which I did, to be a stay at home mother, she said quite clearly to me, 'Who do you think you are?' To mother your children when the rest of us are all working? She said, well, that was a mistake, and she hit the gavel. She took away all of my alimony and most of my child support, even though it was against the law, she did it. And I came home, and I had enough money to live two weeks, and I had two small children, and I just broke down. I said, 'God, I am 40. I am smart. I have always been on my feet. How could this happen? What will I do?' I had a choice. It was a definitive choice. And I was told I had a choice. There was a fork in the road, and you cannot wait. You cannot wait a week. You cannot wait to eat. You are going to have to make this decision right now that is going to determine your whole life.

I went out onto my patio in Los Angeles, which I had covered with trees because we lived in concrete. I went out to the trees, and I am crying and crying. This is verbatim what God said. God said, 'Okay, do you want to pay the rent?' I said, 'Yes, I do.' God said, 'Okay, then you have to do exactly as I say.' I said, 'Okay, what do you want me to do?' God said, 'I want you to go out and heal people.' Before I leave the house, all of a sudden I said, uh oh. I said, God, you didn't tell me what to do, like how do I do the healing? God said, oh yes, of course, all right, do this. So God said, 'Get my Bible. Get my incense.' I love incense. God said, 'Get these oils.' Then God said, 'Get this crystal bowl.' I had this crystal bowl. I'm a musician, and I got it a while back, and I just love playing it. God says, 'Get this.' Now, this is before anybody had crystal bowls. I had to get this crystal bowl, bring the crystal bowl. I said, 'Okay.' Then I said to myself, 'Oh my gosh, I have to have a place to do these healings.' Then the phone rang. Literally, the phone rang. A friend of mine called and said, 'Hey, how are you doing?'

Deirdre Hade is a spiritual teacher, master healer, mystic, and visionary leader in the ancient arts of the wisdom traditions. Her interest in energy work began at 15 years old, when her mother was diagnosed with advanced breast cancer. Radiance Healing and Radiance Meditation.

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I picked up the oils and I anointed her. Then I picked up the crystal ball and I played it. Then I started praying, and then I started singing these prayers that just came in. Then I did it, and then God said, 'Okay, she is done.' I lifted her up and I said, 'How are you?' And she just started crying and she said, 'Oh my gosh, I just feel so good. I feel so healed. I feel completely transformed.' Then the next person came, and the next person came. As I did the work, I grew also, and I learned more and more. Then I decided I should share the knowledge I was getting with people. So I started teaching, and it organically began to happen. With all the people I have worked with, I have seen their lives transform from finding that divine in self and then doing what is really their purpose.

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About ten years ago, I was in a deep meditation beneath a great old oak tree and I heard from within a voice that said, 'You are entering the age of surprise.' And I said, 'What do you mean?' And the voice said that everything is going to become upside down. What you thought was up is going to be down. People are going to present themselves as one thing and then you'll find out they're the opposite of what they presented themselves to be. Then I said to the voice, 'Okay, well, why did you tell me and what am I supposed to do now with this information?' And the voice, who obviously was a very ancient voice, said, 'Oh, go to a mountaintop and shout it out to the people.' I started seeing angels when I was about six, and I would tell my parents about this. So I open the door and Karen came. Oh, hi Karen. She's head down, head down. And I go, 'Well, what's bothering you?' And something came in, and all of a sudden I could read her whole soul. I knew exactly why she was hurt, what happened in her childhood. And I said, 'Well, this is what I see.' And she goes, 'How do you know this?' I don't know how I know this, but I told her that.